Yesterday was a long day.
Brad left early in the morning for an overnight business thing. Phoebe has been fighting some kind of cruddy cough for three weeks now, one that comes with a phantom fever that comes and goes every four days or so. One that came back yesterday morning. She stayed home from school and spent the morning needing to be held or crying because she didn't feel well while we waited for our 1:30 doctor's appointment. Right in the middle of naptime. She has strep. A round of antibiotics and steroids for her cough are now sitting in my fridge.
I missed my weekly errand day, putting me behind for the week already. I didn't mop my floors because it's hard to do with a 28 lb. almost-three-year-old attached to your body. I cancelled my impromptu dinner date with another mom whose husband was also out of town and wondered what to do with the extra ball of pizza dough thawing on my kitchen cabinet.
Eli started running a fever as well about 4:30 so he spent the evening trying to get warm. (The child is cold-natured anyway and the fever gave him some serious chills!). Phoebe was down for a nap by this time so I'll be taking Eli in for his strep test later this morning. I feel sure another round of antibiotics will soon join the first.
I tried to work on my quilt that I'm making for Phoebe's big girl bed and broke the needle.
Right after dinner, Phoebe stopped up the toilet with an entire roll of toilet paper. At least, that's what I
think she used because I wasn't in there with her. I was upstairs trying to help Eli get dressed between chattering teeth and achy joints after his shower. Called my brother-in-law and the crisis was averted. The toilet is still stopped up, but at least it's not overflowing. I found the plunger (after texting Brad because I had
no idea where it was!), but apparently lack the proper plunging skills because it's still not flushing.
Then I remember that today is my dad's birthday and I've forgotten to call him.
I stuck Phoebe in the bath while dealing with the toilet. She pooped in the tub.
While I'm cleaning the tub, it dawns on me that Phoebe's birthday party is next weekend and I have done NOTHING. Except dream up really big, great plans that I now just
have to execute (because I am just plain crazy that way). We are going to be mega-busy Thursday night through Sunday and I won't have time to work on it at all.
This is when I start to feel
really overwhelmed. I mean lock-yourself-in-the-bathroom-and-sit-on-the-floor-and-cry overwhelmed.
Then I remembered an acquaintance from college,
Jenny B., and the
mess she's going through right now. And my friend,
Betsey, who's facing some serious, life-changing decisions. And my friend,
Michelle, whose Marine husband is on a year-long deployment.
And I was overwhelmed at how ungrateful and spoiled I am.
While I have walked through some yucky stuff (who hasn't?), I am here. I am here to worry about birthday parties and doctor appointments and stopped up toilets. I am here to spend my days with a husband I am blessed to be married to. I am here to raise my children. I am here with the opportunity to screw them up (because that's what parents do...even when they mean well). I may take a medicine that has made me re-define what normal feels like and makes me conscious of my mortality every day. But I am
here. By the grace of God who has called me to be a part of His Kingdom.
So I took a deep breath and turned on the Olympics. I made hot, gooey cinnamon rolls out of my thawed pizza dough (they were decadent...just like
THESE) and read
Frog and Toad All Year to my children in front of the fireplace.
Overwhelmed again, dear readers. Completely and embarrassingly with love and blessedness and abundance. And this time did sit down and cry.